Mom, I can not begin to express how it feels without you here. I have a battle going on inside. One part is screaming “ I want you back. This is not fair”. The other says” you are happy, healthy and with all the people you have been longing for”. You are with God our Father. I just don’t know how to everything you did. I don’t know how to do things the way you liked liked them done. I can’t fill your shoes. I need you to help me. I need you to send me signs, talk to me help me get things right. I don’t know how to keep our family together like you did. So many families stray after their mother passes. Please help us to stick together. I love you and I miss you and I’m thankful for everything you have done for me, taught me and all the things you made me do over until I did them right. You are always with me. I will do my best to honor your wishes, live by your example and take my time and put the little details in like you did. I know I can only get through this with the grace of God and my faith in him. God gets what God wants. He wanted you. I have no choice but to accept that and wait patiently until we meet in Heaven. I love you💕💕💕